"You are lovable. I love you. You can love yourself." ~My Someone Special
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I hate it when I hide things, so that my 10 year old doesn't touch it...AND THEN I can't remember the specific hiding place. Oh where--is that printer paper?!? Note to self, calm down and breathe and never hide anything again; adult homework is stressful enough. The End.
Monday, September 24, 2007
We were settled in for the night. I'm reading a book in bed (or I should say TRYING to read a book), and he's watching TV. The volume is so ( ( ( high ) ) ) on the set that the entire state knows that he's watching Law & Order!
"Honey, can you turn it DOWN please?"
He looks at me with that boyish smile..."Can't you just read louder?"
He continues to amuse me people, even after 16 years of marriage. Reading louder was even better than earlier in the evening when he said, "Honey I miss us."
"You mean you miss having sex?"
Like I said...I think I love him.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
My husband decided he would help me with the dishes today. In the sink we had a very SMALL amount of DIRTY dishes--in the dishwasher we had a set of CLEAN dishes. I am not quite sure about the logic he was using, but instead of emptying the dishwasher of the clean dishes and loading it again; he decided it was better to leave the clean dishes in the dishwasher. He then proceeded to wash the few dirty dishes we had, and put them away wet. Yes, I said wet. It was almost comical to watch him clean the silverware, rinse it and drop it in the drawer WET. I was rendered speechless, which is tough to do. After he left the kitchen, I went back and dried the wet dishes he just put away, and I emptied the dishwasher. WHATEVER!!!
I think I love him.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
I loved, loved, loved this movie for three reasons:
-Madison Pettis where have you been all my life. What a sweet piece of talent.
-It reminded me SOOO MUCH of our vow renewal in Las Vegas last summer.
-The Rock. I support my culture whenever I can, and damn he's beautiful.
~Believe in the power of the Father.
~Fathers pick you up and dust you off.
~You're freakishly large...
Elvis has left the building. ; )
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
I started school last week and the fear still creeps up on me sometimes, but I refuse to give in to those fears. So after the kids have been dropped off, I always come home take a shower and blast this song on my computer. It's my "cheerleading" for the day to myself...so today, it's for me and Tara. Happy Monday, jelly beans!
Sunday, September 9, 2007
I woke up this morning with my face all sticky and wet. It took me a few minutes to realize that I was crying in my sleep. I was missing you. In my dream, I remember thinking that I just wanted to talk to you. In the dream, my siblings were all gathered around the famous *kitchen table* that was the center of so many family gatherings and family turmoil. I look straight into the eyes of a cousin and say, "I miss mom." After I run off to your room, jump on your side of the bed and try to focus on a picture that looks like the old you that I remember...and I cry and cry.
What puzzles me when I wake up, is why do I tell the cousin. You see, he was from my adopted family, so you didn't even know him; and then a light bulb goes off in my head. He was the one that drove us to your brother's funeral, where I met you for the very first time. It was your typical Pacific Islander funeral, people from everywhere, aunties and uncles you've never met...and if you're lucky, you might even see your birth mother that you've never met or seen since her cousin took you in and raised you as her own.
I was lucky. I saw you for the first time ever...I talked to you and I hugged you and it was the very first time you said...I love you. People ask me all the time how I knew it was you, easy I would say...you looked at me like a mother looks at her newborn for the very first time, only I was 11 years old and she was 39, it was a meeting that was a long time coming, and I remember that I was so happy that our meeting that was cut short all those years ago...finally happened and my heart was never the same again.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
I LOVE this show. Why? Because it makes me LAUGH, and I do mean laugh out loud! Which is really ironic, because all the people in my real life know, that I just had the year from hell due to this substance and a teenager. So I watch it at night or when he's not home, because I don't want a relapse...he's been clean for 4 months now! yay! He is also doing really well in a drug program for teens.
Anyway, back to the show. I love watching *Mary Louise Parker* in character with her youngest son on the show and with her housekeeper. One of my favorite lines is when she tells him:
"I am very fond of you."
The song in the beginning is hysterical, and it doesn't help that it reminds me of my current place of residence. eek! Happy weekend, jelly beans.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
I married my Latin Lover! ~_^ It was fun...I ran around Napa Valley drunk on wine and love.
"Each moment is a place you've never been." -- Mark Strand
Thank you for taking me to places I've never been before...I love you. Here's to 16 more!!!! Happy Anniversary, baby!