"You are lovable. I love you. You can love yourself." ~My Someone Special

Thursday, October 25, 2007


The husband cheats and melts extra butter to pour on top, and you have hot buttered cinnamon popcorn. I didn't realize how many people take their popcorn so seriously. ; ) Me included!


Sunday, October 21, 2007

I Love...

...Beautiful Sunday mornings.
...Watching movies that my honey goes to rent for me.
...Take care of yourself days a.k.a. wellness day.
...Hot showers.
...Ice cold water or juice.
...His soft hands on my back.
...The smell of hot buttered, cinnamon popcorn.
...My son's very short haircut, cutie.
...My daughters funny notes left around the house for us.
...Having the house to myself.
...Early morning soccer games with the cold wind blowing.
...Starbucks coffee brought to early soccer game by husband.
...Naps on a weekend afternoon.


Thursday, October 18, 2007

Some Good Things...

I made an "A" on my oral presentation in speech class. yay! Apparently, even though I was a nervous wreck, they liked my energy, I'll take that.

I washed my hair yesterday...what you don't care?? It's a big thing for someone who's battling the blues. heehee I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Also, I started another blog to help me deal with some stuff, so don't be confused and think I started a new one...I just have two of them now. If you want, you can be directed there by clicking my profile. Later, jelly beans.


Monday, October 15, 2007

Dear Blog & Blogger Friends,

I'm having a mini-breakdown. I've fallen into this black hole, it's really nothing major. I've come to accept the depression for what it is, but sometimes it takes a good bite out of my ass, and I just can't get moving. I don't remember the last time I hit the shower in the past few days, it has all been a blur.

It's usually due to a combination of things, a fight with my teenager, school stress, and that damn football! I just can't listen to it without crying about missing my birth mother, just typing that sentence made me cry--SEE?? It's going to be a tough first year without her. We didn't have one of those hallmark mother/daughter relationships, but that's not what I miss, nor would I change anything about us. I just miss an "ordinary conversation" with her. A conversation where she does most of the talking, and I'm left thinking, why did I even bother to call...but you're just happy you did. That's what I miss.

Also, my "machine gun" mouth is getting in the way of parenting, and I'm just not very proud of myself at the moment. But it's one of those things where you pray and hope that the child will grow up and find a damn good therapist. ; ) I know, I'm starting to come out of it, because beFrank and Jennifer's comment made me smile. It's the little things in life, right? Baby steps...that's what I'm taking right now, and I'm sure things will come around, they always do.

I miss you, jelly beans!


Note to TW's True Love...You're an amazing man, and I am very lucky to have you.